Monday, October 17, 2011

Just a Little Bit of Everything...

Well, I haven't posted in a while because life has been so hectic lately.
I get home from work and spend time with Gabe, get him ready for bed, then try to relax a little bit before going to bed. But I have so much on my mind that I just need to post.

1. Work
Work is going well. My kids, for the most part, are pretty good. Being team leader is going well and I think I've pretty well settled into that role. Our team is organizing a fall festival in two weeks and by "our team," I mean mostly me. It's okay though. I know it'll be stressful but I think I'm doing okay with it now.

2. Gabriel
He is a mess! Always on the go! And FINALLY, I am happy to report, he is getting his first tooth. It has officially broken through the gum and is quite the sharp little thing. So at almost 9 months, he has his first tooth, about the same age I was. He wants to crawl all over the place, although he also likes to put everything in his mouth so we have to watch him closely. We took him to the park a few weeks ago and he absolutely loved the swing. His Aunt Tina bought him an outdoor swing to hang in a tree so hopefully we'll get to see them soon so she can give it to us. Can't wait to put him in it.

3. My Heart
There are some things that, of late, have been on my heart and mind. First of all, and I'm just throwing this out there...not to anyone in particular...but why is it that married couples deem it okay to throw the word divorce around when they are arguing or things are not going their way? I've noticed this a lot lately and it really bothers me. My hubby and I, no matter what arguments we might get into or how frustrated we may be with one another, agree DIVORCE is NEVER an option. It is never discussed, mentioned, or even thought about. I think if divorce is an option in your mind when you get married, then you probably should just forego those nuptials. Of course, there are situations that call for divorce and those 2 situations (infidelity & abuse) are understandable but just because one person is not doing what you expect them to do, does not warrant the word divorce to be thrown around. Just sayin'...

I've also been examining myself. I am by no means perfect. And my life has not been what I desire it to be lately. I have not been putting Christ first or even second. He has, unfortunately, been pretty much last in my life and I am so disgusted that this has been the case. I rejoined my church choir last week and it felt so good to be back with the people I have called family for the last 2 years. It felt as if I had never left and put a smile on my face when our worship pastor, Mike, told me, "Welcome home, Kayla." It truly felt like I was coming home after being away for so long. I need this. I enjoy choir practice and spending time with Godly people that are so much fun to be around but I also enjoy being able to help lead people into worship on Sunday morning. It's not about a show or about being "seen" for me. It's just that I think I put more into my own worship experience personally and I bring more to worship when I know that I am part of leading others.

I am so looking forward to the upcoming season. Fall, my 2nd favorite time of year, leads right into my favorite time. Our house is decorated for fall already and the week after our in laws move out, we'll be decorating for Christmas and organizing the rest of our home. We're going to Alabama for Christmas this year, something I haven't done in 5 years. I can't wait to see how Gabe reacts to the whole season.

So, that's my heart and mind. There's more that I want to say but I'm tired and am having more fun watching my niece walk around in her very unique way. Good night...

Wednesday, October 5, 2011

Oh My Son...

Why do you grow so fast?

When I look at you, I can hardly believe it has been over 8 months already since we brought you home. You have changed my life in so many ways and taught me so much about patience and love.

You seem to learn something new every day and sometimes, with me working full time, I feel like I miss out. I'm thankful I'm enjoying my students this year but I still wonder what you're doing with daddy constantly through out the day. You are so blessed to have such a good daddy that stays home with you and plays with you and enjoys his time with you.

At night when we put you to bed, your smile just melts my heart. We pray over you as you wiggle like a worm, smiling, standing, and grabbing at our shirts. You jabber for a few minutes and then fall right to sleep. I'm so thankful that you're a good sleeper at always have been. I just wish sometimes that you would still sleep in our arms. I miss those days. I look back at pictures of when you were just a month or two old and cannot believe how quickly that time went by. I know everyone said it would and I knew it just doesn't hit you how fast until it's gone.

You are so busy. You don't even sit still long enough for me to enjoy you sitting in my lap. I do hope you'll want to cuddle and snuggle with us maybe as you get older. But I must also makes me proud to know how independent you are and how determined you are. I hope that attitude will stay with you as you grow into a young man...I hope that means that you will be your own person and not swayed by the crowd. I want you to be a hard worker and have a never give up attitude. So far, you seem to have that down. When you're learning something new, that's all you want to do until you get it. It's what you did with rolling over, crawling, standing, and what you seem to be doing now with walking.

Walking...there's another thing mommy's just not ready for. You've already taken a few steps here and there and if you keep going the way you seem to be, you will be walking before Thanksgiving if not by the end of this month. Daddy and I really have to buckle down and start childproofing the house or we will have trouble on our hands. You tend to put EVERYTHING in your mouth which means we have to watch you like a hawk to make sure you don't get a hold of anything that could hurt you. Your hands migrate toward anything that seems to be we definitely have to keep drinks out of your reach.

You still have no I guess you'll just be gumming everything until you get them. I'm not sure what new foods I can introduce you to with you having no teeth. But we got brave tonight and broke off a tiny piece of a cookie. You loved it of course.

The holidays are approaching and I can't wait to take your picture in the pumpkin patch or get Christmas photos taken...which reminds me that I have to ask our favorite photographer, Karissa, if she can do them. I'm still planning your party and think I have decided to do it here. Instead of spending the money to rent a place, I'll spend that money to clean up and spruce up the patio which is something we want and need to do anyway.

I love you my sweet Baby Gabey and enjoy watching you learn and grow...even though I miss some things. You are my sweet precious sunshine....