Friday, May 25, 2012

Blessings....

I confess.

This month has been one of the hardest months emotionally and financially that I have ever had.
Which, in retrospect, isn't all that bad. But it has been tough.

Here's the bottom line: I wouldn't trade the year that Jason has had home with Gabe for anything in this entire world; but it's been a struggle for me. Financially we were doing okay when his brother and sis-in-law moved in last June. But when they moved out in November so did the extra income that kept us afloat. We resorted to credit cards - something we never thought we'd have to do - to pay for groceries or gas. We were able to pay off a lot of debt with our income tax but then we were right back where we started again. We realized that Jason HAD to get a job because we couldn't wait around for something to come available with CSX forever.

The amazing thing - and the thing I am constantly reminded of these days - is that God's timing is ever so perfect and He absolutely LOVES to come through at the 11th hour. Why? So that there is no other possible reasoning behind things working out the way they do. It's just God.

It seemed that as soon as we resolved to get Jason a job, one popped up on CSX. He applied several other places and then was scheduled for an interview with CSX. This was in the middle of the hardest month. Most of the bills were paid but we were running out of money in our account for groceries - and the 3 credit cards we have were pretty much at their max so they weren't an option either. We pretty much spent what was left on food for Gabriel since he is our number one priority. I was sort of wondering where our food would come from for the next week before payday.

This morning, when I went to my box at school, someone had left a card in there for me...and inside were TWO Publix gift cards. I burst into tears immediately. Why do I worry? Why do I constantly do what Matthew 6 tells me not to do? He feeds the birds of the air. He clothes the lilies of the field. Of course He's going to take care of me. I don't know who this person is that left such a wonderful blessing in my box and I may never know - - - but you can guarantee that when Jason starts bringing home a paycheck and we are in the position to bless others - that is exactly what I am going to do.

Humbled & Grateful!