Friday, November 4, 2011

...Ch-Ch-Ch-Changes...

God has a way of throwing you a curve ball just when you are settling into a comfortable stance at bat. Honestly speaking, I don't particularly care for curve balls. To be frank, sometimes, I'm really not all that fond of the game. But there I stand, trying to be obedient and take whatever is thrown at me.

In July of 2009, Jason and I found a church we could call home. We fell in love with the people, the worship, the atmosphere. That same year in September or October, I joined the choir. Never in my life had I enjoyed a group of people more...and our worship pastor/choir director? One of THE most Godly men I have ever met in my life. He has a way about him...you just like to be near him. Personally speaking, I think it's the Jesus that radiates off of every fiber of that man's being.

Shortly after we came, the youth pastor was called to another church and a different man took over. He took a huge step of faith and quit his good paying job as an engineer to take on the youth full time. It was apparent that the youth quickly fell in love with him. I adore his wife and enjoy watching his girls worship. He is truly a man of faith. I admire him deeply.

At the same time, the pastor's wife was stepping down from her role as the children's leader and another man took that position with his wife alongside of him. This man dedicated my son back in May and runs an excellent children's program complete with a nursery I feel 100% confident leaving my son in.

I would also like to point out that these same 3 men came to visit me in the hospital after I had Gabriel and their beautiful wives brought us dinner the week we came home.

But there is another man. This man was a huge catalyst in getting our new building built. This man can hardly stand on stage and talk about Jesus without getting all weepy....and it is the most endearing thing I have ever witnessed. He has a heart for young adults and has this way of asking you questions and making you think about things. He's an amazing man of God with no stopping point...he is quite literally like the energizer bunny. I respect him and also happen to share a birthday with him.

These 4 men make up a good section of the heartbeat of our church. So you can imagine my shock and yes, I'll say it....devastation...when our worship pastor told the choir Wednesday night that he was leaving Midway...and the other 3 were as well. The 4 of them are starting their own church as they feel God calling them to do. It's a lot to take in at once. And I have a lot of questions and confusion but who am I to question God's plan? He is the ultimate authority and His plan and His will would get done with or without these men....but I will tell you this: in my personal opinion, He could not pick a better group of men to fulfill His mission.

No, I've never been a huge fan of change when I am not in control of it. But, that's why God is God and not me. Things are going to change at our church...and I am not sure what that change is going to look like exactly...but I do know that before we make any decisions, that my knees need to be worn out from the floor. I have a lot of praying to do over this change and a lot of wisdom and clarity that needs to be given to me. It's going to be difficult. It's going to be different. It's going to be downright dramatic. But the phrase that keeps playing in my head over and over is this: I may not know what the future holds...but I know without a doubt Who holds the future. So, as long as HE is on the throne, everything is going to be alright.