Friday, July 22, 2011

Just the Honest Truth...

Sometimes, being a mom is not all fun and precious moments. Sometimes, it's downright frustrating. Don't get me wrong. I absolutely love that little wiggly jiggly monkey of mine and would not trade him for all the riches in this life. But sometimes, that sweet adorable son of mine, pushes those buttons.

At this point, with that boy at 6 months old, I would do anything to figure out how to give him a bottle and have him not fight me on it. I think he is so crazy about solids now that he just either doesn't care about the bottle anymore or the one he has isn't working for him. I honestly do not know. I don't know what to do. And THAT, is the worst part. I feel as his mother I should know all the answers...and I don't. How am I supposed to fix it when I don't know what the real problem is. Anyone out there feel me on this?

I love him more than life itself but this stage, as exciting as it is and has been and will continue to be, is wearing me thin. I'm already used to the exhaustion. That I can handle. Being a mother is just exhausting. And I am okay with that. It's worth that smile, that giggle, that way he looks at me with those big blue eyes that say he knows exactly who I am and he loves me.

Why is he fighting me feeding him the bottle? Why is he making that hummy fussy noise that I've never heard before? Why is he happy one minute and fussy the next? Sometimes I wish I could just quit him on the bottle and feed him solids from now on because that is what he likes...but I know he needs the nutrition the formula gives him...and so I fight, sometimes for an hour, just to give him his 7 oz that he has, up to this point, guzzled down without a problem.

We're taking him to the beach today for the first time so I'm hoping he loves it and does well and that he sleeps well tonight afterward. I love when he discovers new things and I guess that makes these times worth every bit.

But now I must take my tired self and pack his beach bag. Praying for a good trip...and an answer to this growing issue. Six month well check on Monday so hopefully the doctor can shed light on this frustrating occurrence. Later gators...