Thursday, May 19, 2011

:::Sigh:::

Today....was borderline horrid. It was my hubby's birthday and I didn't even have a card for him so I started out feeling awful. I wasted 30 minutes of my morning time waiting on a parent to show for a conference. She never did. And although 2nd and 4th period were great today, 6th period led me into a fury. I actually SLAMMED the office door I was so angry. Yea, it phased them for about...3 seconds. I was extremely close to tears, which I have NEVER been during a class ever before. I feel so bad for the hard working, respectful, polite kids because they are constantly overshadowed by the other idiots. I'm so tired of students not caring, or thinking they can get away with anything, or not taking responsibility, or instigating and acting like they're innocent. I'm over parents enabling their children. Now, some parents KNOW how their child acts but many either have no clue or don't care because it is surely ridiculous how many parents think their child is an angel. I gots news for ya....


Yesterday, I came across 2 open positions at a school I interviewed for back in November. I wanted to transfer there SO bad but they chose someone with more experience over me. But she really liked me then and told me to make sure I apply if another position ever opened. I laughed inside. Like another Language Arts position is going to open up at a school that has barely any turn over. Suuuuure....


And then there they were...not one but TWO Language Arts positions at this school. Please Jesus! I applied for both and since I've already interviewed once, hopefully I'll have an advantage. It's a magnet school...an 'A' school...with students who actually like to learn. I'm not even sure how I would be able to handle that. I might go through a bit of culture shock if I get this job. :)


Went to Longhorn's tonight for hubby's birthday. Twas yummy. Saturday we're having a mini get together here and I will be trying my hand at red velvet cheesecake cupcakes. Sure hope they turn out well...or I'll be going to purchase a Publix cake. 


Gabe will be 4 months old tomorrow. I can't even think about it. 


The four month mark makes me nervous now. I've been following the blog of a woman who lost her 4 month old precious girl to SIDS back in February. I think she passed one day after her 4 month birthday. And since following her inspirational and emotional blog, I have run across similar stories and many of them happen around that 4 month stage. I know it might sound silly and I need to trust God for his safety but as a mother, it still gives me the willies. Anyways, I have so much fun watching him learn and grow, even though time refuses to stand still for me and sooner than I know it, he'll be walking and talking. I love him more than words can even express...


That's why, I hope I get this job. I think I would actually enjoy teaching then...and I want my son to know I like my job. And honestly, right now, I don't. That's awful, I know. But the summer is almost here and then I can relax with my boy and enjoy peace. Oh sweet peace...